离开

很想离开这里
向二哥说了 想和他一起明年到新加坡去深造 和大哥三个人一起住！
他说：是咯？那swinburne怎么办？
我心虚的说：不念了咯，反正我也读不来了。。我跟你一起念interior design啦。。广告也不错。
他：读fashion design啦。。
我：design是天生的吗？ 我又不会design东西的。。
他：是咯?！design是天生的咯! 那还要有design course来做末？？
我：。。。 当然有connect到啦，向你酱会画画。
then，我向老豆说，我要去新加坡读书。。
*我也忘了他又什么反应*
老妈就说我：那么多钱啊？！！ *。。。。。。。。。*
到最后，我还是离开不了这个地方。。。



我到底怎么了？！！ 连自己都不知道自己在干什么。
狠乱！！ 狠lost！！！

可悲

让她说中了 我真的没办法接受和面对挑战
是自己弱 害怕 没信心 承受不了压力
所以只懂得逃避

虽然‘好听’的说自己18了 成长了
事实上自己还是个小孩 也发现自己真的很无知
什么都不知道 不知道

懒惰也是身边的人都知道的
真不明白为什么爸妈都那么勤奋 而会生出了这么懒惰的我
懒惰到恨自己

而人太好也容易让人骗 被伤害 被骂笨 好意不被珍惜
真是显 好人难当 想做坏人又违背不了自己
还有什么样的人可以选择啊？？

在情场上 失败
爱了 却得放手
有爱没爱 没两样

emo 能够‘发泄’内心的自己 为什么会有人讨厌呢？
当然 我的‘emo’ 只在于思想情绪上 而还没到割手腕之类的地步
因为我怕痛 == 也还有理智



Lost shitz.

lei le.

tu ran jue de dui shuo you ren, shuo you shi wu, shuo yong dong xi
dang ran hai you zi ji, dou jue de lei le.
wo zen me le.....

family night out.

had a wonderful night tonight.
mom didn't open shop tonight
coz wanna have a family night tonight (lol with the repeating of 'tonight')
as biggie bro is leaving for s'pore tomorrow
went to church in the evening
then went to have dinner somewhere at BDC
i just have my vege and pork.like the typical-recent-dishes i can take. =((
they had mango fish, toufu, and 'oh-jian'...gawddddd i wana have them too!!!
broz always teased me and 'gek' me with those food i cant have..gaaahhhhh >.<
then then, went to Spring and shop around Ta Kiong before the movie time.
arhh~ feel nice to get me butt out of me room~
kesian me, wana buy some snacks or maybe should-say-biscuits also cant.
look at the ingredients..YEAST!! EGG!! grrrr out of my toungue.
ended up bought Lot100 orange for meself.><

then, it's 9pm! wohoo~ full man..eventhough bro bought the ticks earlier
we still got ourselves seperated.
me ♥ me seat. sat between both broz.
gahah!! felt nice and protected! gegegege
we did something funny too.reli lol~ hahahah
my hope of going to watch a movie with bros finally came.
as i think i never watch a movie with biggie bro again already since i was 6 or 7.=(
and and.....it's the 1st time mummie actually watched movie with us in the cinema! hahahaha
1st time 5 of us stucked in a cinema.wooots~
we kids were so badd...always teased mummie with that.XD
broz: later mom got addicted dy, next time ajak her own frens watch together every week liao. / later mummie sure sleeping in the cinema one.
hahahahah.mom even said wana ajak her fren go K-box.ROFL!!!
impossible for her to step in there la..lol~
hmmm~ having a great night tonight.felt so......family.rofl~~~



2012. not a DAMN-nice-kind-of-nice for me.just...a goody-one? lols
but some parts quite touched me and sad (note:me no cry!hahahaha)
and had a feel to express ILY to someone.which.... i did.
needa watch it then can get what's the feel i actually wana express. if only u are me.hahahah
okay, stop crappin dy..gehehehe bogeh~
good night. ♥


xoxo
p/s: me likie S.and queen B too.gahah! GG is ♥!
"bcoz, i'm Chuck Bass." -nice one!!

心不了情

现在觉得 自己的 想法 感觉 内心世界
还是留在自己心里比较好
不想说出来了 反正也没人想理
而会理的那个人 却自作主张
虽然说了是为了我好 我还是有点气的 或许将来才谢谢你吧
但 气最多的 还是自己
气自己为什么会这样 总是活在回忆当中
算了 不多说了 自己心里知道就好了



‘回忆过去 痛苦的相思 忘不了。。’

don't give me.

why is it everytime when i got a HOPE
then my hope will get 'rejected'.
and, i got rejected before i actually got my 'hope'.
please God, can don't so cruel and snatch away my HOPE?
i don't want to have any HOPE anymore.
it can snatch away one's 'life'.
the future me, will be the one who is lack of confidence and hopeless already.
that's it.



-alienshitz.is.me-
sayinggoodbyetothe5♥♥♥♥♥lydays.
♥

worst night.

me tearss drop countlessly tonight
it's the worst night for me
got chicken pox
tomorrow emb test and im giving up now
and..me <3 has broken.
cruel enough.really enough.
undescribeable sadnesss.



luckily im sick.
hampalang sickness come together.

first.pertama.yi.

a memorable day / night.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

u know i know. =)

xoxo.

mask.

i wonder,
why can i face someone with two totally different attitudes in the same time.
is it because im good and polite as in won't show my bad feelings to the person?
or..the person is not important for me enough that i can show him/her my real feelings.
hmmm~~
deeep personality question.
meaning, i can be smiling and joking with you, while im moody or sad or mad inside.
wow.hard to catch me and mysterious enough.
hope i won't 'zou huo ru mo' someday..=="

wo de hai pa.

you shi hou wo ye you xiang guo
nan dao wo men zhi jian zhen de mei hua ti le?
dang ni shuo ni bu zhi dao yao hui wo shen me shi
jue de wo men zhi jian zhen de bian de hao leng le
leng dao wu hua ke tan? *hai pa*
ruo bu zhao ni de hua
wo jiu bu zhi dao ni jui jing ru he
ni ye bu zhi dao wo jui jing ru he
you shi hou zhi tou guo blog qu liao jie ni de zhuang kuang
gan jue hen xiang mo sheng ren
juedehenbushufu!! T.T
dao di gai ru he ne?
you shi hou zi ji hai you yu zhe dao di gai bu gai zhao ni ne?
deng xia ni you bu hui wo le...shangxin*
gou tong shang chu xian le wen ti?
hai shi wo de chun zai yi jing rang ni xi guan le
xi guan dao mei gan jue le?


duibuqi, qing bu yao wu hui le wo de yi si.
wo bing bu ba ni dang cheng stranger.
chong lai dou mei you and never!

♥

this is for you, dearrie.

Happi-13th-monthnarry!!

gegegegegee

30 more days to go.*

loveyou. xoxo

♥

feelin'

just now, instead of playing badminton.
i cried in the court.when listening to what zhabor told me.
i was not tough enough to overcome my tears.
felt so stressed and 'pek chek' recently.
in addition, final will be next week.
and im not prepared yet.
guess i will F my EMB this time...

words can't feel and have no feeling on how i'm feeling now.


can i have a hug?

compass? navigator??

i'm really lost.
due to something, mom suddenly asked me this yesterday
'why don't you think of studying hotel management?'
me, 'uhmm..ever THOUGHT about it.'
recently thought of, is biotech suits me?
yeh, me. the lazy and non-study-material.
actually i have lotss of thoughts on other different industrials.
but, really cant get which one i prefer most and got the most interest on.
really 'route-less'.
gosh gosh.what am i thinking?
what am i suppose to do?
i don't want to waste the money and time.
God, or anyone, can save me?
i need a trustworthy and reliable compass and navigator.
imhopeless.
=(


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dearrie, i have a thought that im sorry for letting you to think that im weak.
guess is coz whenever im sad, down, happy, excited..i just wana tell/share with you.
that's why i looked weak for you.?
but that's me.
and, seems like it doesn't work anymore.='(


*sostressed.soannoyed.ireallywannahugyouquietlyandcry.weakagain.*
-11.11pm

a cool night.

this noon was just actually asking Ken whether he's going to the mr. photogenic shooting not.
then he asked me go too.
think that it might be fun.so i decided to go.
he came to fetch me. i thought we were late already.
who know's, Micklong was the one who was late.lols
met with Cindy there too! =p
it was quite an awkward situation for me at 1st as im the only one who was not in the photogenic-thingy.lols
after sometime, we started to talk around.
funny thing was that all of them thought that Ken and i were couple.haha
we tried to explain that we are relatives. they seemed didn't want to believe us.
but in the end they did.i guess.lols
fun night though. took pics around. joke around. met new friends. teehee^^
*but i dono a guy's name.from swinburne too.=//*
Dino is so cute la.all of us were shocked when we got to know that he was the oldest among us.
24 years old while we thought he was just 17 or 18. some even said he was just 14!! hah!
we took our 'family photo' together too.woots~
then around 11+pm, we went to Premium 101 for their DINNER together.kolian.lols
had a funny chat among them.lols
then when we were taking photos, lots of people were seeing us.paiseh-nya..haha
in overall, really had a wonderful night.
thanx again Ken.gege
*will upload some pics if i got them.?* gege
zZz..

halo.

feeling better lu~

better better better

gegege gegege gegege

i wanna be a happy gal~

gagagaggagaga

everything will be back like the older days~

mwa mwa mwa mwa muacks!!

xoxoXOXOxoxo

Haloween.

booo0o0o0oo~~~~~

gegege. just wana post this for self-fun.

Haloween night for Elbeez at Trav.

not me. >,<

he drunk till badly that night.

luckily not me. =p
*cool make-up, too bad x costume.haha*

Kuching doesn't really have much Haloween atmosphere though.

*honestly, i don't even know when's the actual day.*

if it was not for the pubs/lounges..

Haloween is totally out from Kuching eh?

*too bad~

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suddenly found and remembered this pic.

huhu.like it..

cozzz...

very WHITE!

lols!

牙 很痛！

前几个星期左边的‘智慧牙’稍微的肿 很难吃东西 只能用另一边咬
几天前终于好了

谁知！！
今天开始 换了右边肿了 而且比较严重 真的越来越疼哦！
也慢慢的传染到头疼了！=（

华的毒！！！
根本不能吃东西！
刚刚咬了小小口的鸡扒都无法咬烂 吐了出来
软软的蛋糕 都吃得满辛苦的
而且连吞个口水也难！！
哎~生什么智慧牙嘛 又不是真的能给我些智慧什么的
看来 明天是不用吃咯！

要等多几个星期才会好啊。。。

静静的

我沉默 并不代表我忘了你
我‘消失’并不代表我不在乎你
也许只想 静静的 守护着你

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为何自己不想去接受那个结局

还让自己那么的痛苦 天真 讨人厌

*在某方面 发现了自己真的 改变了*

came from hutan.

woots. just now during class time, suddenly we heard the sirens from the bomba and ambulance. we like 'sua pa lo' and viewed out from the windows. *teacher din't teach that time.she even joined us.lol* then few of us so 'sua pa lo'..rushed down and ran-walked to the "bridge" (suddenly forgot call what) there and headed to the building (where our ICs or passports were made), like we were going to rescue them.lmao! halfway, it was going to rain already, we were in a dilemma whether wanna continue walking or going back to uni.haha we continued, and reached the back entrance already, but we saw the guard who was standing there, heading to us. fook ming noob noob, quickly ran away and we followed him.lols! then on the way back, i saw kah leong, holding something on his hand and walked slowly to us. he 'tapao-ed' french fries and a burger to 'enjoy-the-scene' with us? hahah then, i took some noob photos to 'share' this crazy moment.lol~ but still enjoying it. ^^

haiz...skill-less fabian. but somehow i like this pic. don't know why. so blurr though! lols~


skill-less lagi. duh duh

aiya, tak sempat. wanna capture kah leong.lols

lols. fab's 回嫇一笑. fainted* hahahah!

gege! see kah leong! enjoying the moment with french fries.lols!

noob noob superhero fook ming and ah jo.

tengok* ini baru call PRO photographer! wakakak. but ur hair 'flat' jor la..lol

*actually it's just a fire drill thingy.lol*

woo woo woo~ i likie* to crazee with a bunch of frenz.

can自我 忘我-ing.lols!

wait till the end of final. gege. clubbing then?

hoho..opppx. i just mentioned clubbing? yeah.lols~

*see first la.dai huai by guai shu shu.gagaga.*
go for K first la.gege~

感性

近年来 自己都在怀疑 为何心里的‘第一位’并非家人所属
虽然知道家 是永远最好 有安全感的‘避风港’
为何各个朋友的答案都是家人 而过去直到现在的我 却不是
想想 是不是因为
无法感觉到家人对自己的支持
还是家人永远都无法认识 真正的我
还是自己 也习惯了这种‘不肖’的想法
哎~ 真是有够不肖女
不知道自己何时才能长大 独立



最近都感觉到没什么安全感
而且 好像变得‘孤癖’了
也很容易‘忧郁’上身
*不要怪我太emo 只好怪我太感性*

F O O D .

im stucking in one of the corners in uni's library now. wondering when's the time for leaving, and what and where am i going to eat later. now im h u n g r y neh. i didn't have my lunch this noon. don't feel like want to. the last moment i put FOOD into my mouth was this morning, around 8am. woo~ now it's going to be 8pm dy. gaga! like puasa-ing..lols! *really 'pei fu' the muslims.o.o* maybe going to somewhere and tapao alone then.><


henxiangta.

abbbbsolute!

yeah! still remember the last time i stepped into the ktv was during my last birthday. this noon, i stepped in again. woots. at first not that allow myself to react-highly. after sometime, the feel came, weeee* shout shout sing sing.fun! i don't really realize that most of the songs i chose were sad songs, till zhabor told me. woo~ *really got the feel of tears were going to drop, but luckily didn't.*
so cool when we sang ‘为你而活 together. we all tried our maximum power to sing it. weee~ fun fun. it will gonna be in the list for next time! ‘失恋无罪' is nice, but it's really hard to get the pitch.=/ i sang till voiceless already.lols. gegegege


cham lo...addicted to K dy..how bout MBO? go both?
pokai chin woi..@@

jiewonideerduo

wo, zongyukeyibaxinlimougejiaoluodeqingxugeishuochulaile
wochenrenwohaishiwufashuochuquanbu
danzhishaowoyouyongqigaoshunizhenxiang
yihoukeyigaoshuniwozaixiangshenmele
xiwangnibuhuixianqi
xiexienidelingting


ganjueyouyidiandianbijiaoshufu

i was blessed.

just now, when i was on my way back home, after i overtook a car, suddenly a stupiak dog rushed out from a junction. i really don't know why that time i will look on the left and saw it running out. *thanks God!* then the car beside me that i overtook immediately slowed down or stopped. so do i. i stared on it. i knew that if i didn't see it, surely i will just stepped harder on my pedal and knocked onto it, and i don't know what was the ending. omg. hardly can imagine. luckily there was no car from behind too. if not....er......okay. *choi.touchwood man*



allehluya.
*God, i hope that i can be happy everyday, and and, be more hardworking, please. thanks. Amen. =)*

those days.

this afternoon suddenly mentioned 丹田
then connected it to dearrie and mamiie
suddenly so miss those time.
the time where we started to learn marching till commanding the members to march
wow.missed dearrie's and mammie's command.
so 'powerful' and will tiok scared. gege
miss those camping days, dance competion and high school life eh.

no more returning. =(

错爱

我从来没想过
我会这样做
从来没爱过
所以爱错

sam tam

突然觉得 对所有东西都 心淡了
也好 该学会在某些事上 “放手”了

saa-turr-daee

woo~ went to cut me hair this afternoon
first time went with bro
in a dilemma whether wanna cut not
but i was kinda tired with the 'old hair' already
then just Cut it.gege
but, got comments from mom after that =(
really wondering is it nice on me not ><
and and...me dream hair needed to be delayed already..><
waiting for the end of nov or dec.
gonna dye back me color > greyish-green. gaga

then then..just now after closing shop
went to mcD to buy supper with bro again
lol. a-meeting-known-people-at-mcD-night for tonite?
1stly, saw dad's fren's family.
i said to bro..

M: eh, na ge bu shi na ge shui ar?
B: wo zhi dao, jia jia mei you kan dao. deng xia bu zhi dao yao jiang shen me.
M: ha ha.shi lo..eh! ba ba de peng you zai counter leh!
B: jia jia mei you kan dao.bu yao kan ta..
M: ha? then deng xia ta zhou gua lai kan na li leh?? *looking here and there and saw some people*
B: kan di ban kan di ban...eh, hao cai ta yong ling yi bian zou diao liao..

LOL!!! like saw what ahneh...

then the 2nd person i saw was Suk Yee.cute la her.=p
then then saw Wei Cherng.i thought he should be in KL now? o.o
then then then saw some ex-highians/highians kind of people.lols
woo~ cool cool.can meet up with so many people in a small place.
in conclusion, mcD is a place where everyone will be meeting up. or...everyone loves mcD. 0.0
anything la...

i got feelin's

i was really happy when i saw online
then, i felt was moody
indeed.
i asked what happened
but insisted didn't want to tell me
(felt so useless for who i am)
and seemed the "promise" doesn't work on us.
='(*

dont't wanna force dy.
but still, cheeers eh!!

trustworthy not.

刚刚自己一个人时，突然莫名的覚得。。。

男人很难可靠了。

好难相信男人是否都真心的对待唯一的最爱。

对每个女生都口花花的男人。不可靠。

不关心/体贴/疼自己的女人的男人。不要也罢。

真正的爱情，必须经的起考验，且双方都愿意付出，来为持一断永久的感情。

没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不珍惜谁。

my nooob chinese post.*finally can type in chinese le! lol!*

*if i were a boy~ even just for a day...*

don't regret.

human will always regret on what they have done.
when you had realised that u're regretting now,
you wanted to treasure it back.
too bad that, things will surely change then, and it will be gone far away from you.
im one of that kind of human.
when i got the chance, i 'hide' from it *im sorry* ;
now that i want back the chance, it is g o n e *inoehowufeltatthatmomentdy* .

the process of regretting is bitter. but, it change a person to treasure.
treasure cherish treasure!!


djaderabbitlover~
youwillalwaysbeinmyheart.somewheredeeeper.
thanks for everything.indeed. *l.o.v.e.*
*foolstop.*


"love changes changes everything love makes you cry..oh oh oh..dut dut dut du-dut du~" -forgot-what-song.

ima 'big-peeple'?

i went for a specialist this afternoon to check on me.
on the girl's stuff.yeah-you-know-it...
wooo~ i was asked to consume the 'prevent-pregnant-pills' aka 避孕药 o.0
i was shocked at first when heard about that.
wondering, so serious huh??
coz im afraid if there is any side-effect not.
Dr. W told me it's alrite to have it, as lots of young women now were facing this problem too.
then, during the scanning procedure,
she suddenly asked me softly,
Dr. W: 你有性生活了吗？
me: 哈？？ *coz too soft*
Dr. W: 你有性生活了吗？？
me: 哦。。没有没有！！*smiling face, wondering i looked like i had???*
Dr.W: 哦。。我是怕万一你有，可能可以check看你是不是怀孕了。*smile*
me: .... *smiling*

wah...tiok shocked by her sudden question again.lols!
coz never expect she would ask something like that.haha
after the scanning those thing, fine, i think.
but i was told to consume the pills better,
to 'adjust' my hormones.lols~
needa have it for 21 days.wow~
1st time doing such 'big-peeple-thingy'.
i mean having the pills of course.lmao!!!
and, the doc is really friendly! hah!



hatetosaythat, immissingyousomuchhere.

debt.

M: why u always want people scold u de??
I: ..... *becoz i kiam scold!!!*




recently, i really think that i'm acting like a 'bastard' who owes scolding.
can someone pull out the 'devil' in me?!!!
i'm tired...and i'm lost.

having a bad day..

hoping that i can change. myself.

haiz...

why im so useless.

whenever saw them so hardworking there..

then im just slacking there beside.

deep in heart i know i shouldn't be so...

but i just cant control myself to CHANGE!!!

wateef!

and..i seems like escaping from it! =(

haizzzz....

no difference.

"it's a damn lonely night.
try to figure out this life.
wont i get a life and get started with it
i dont know who am i but i
i miss you."

-chele.
(rewrite from avril's 'im with you'.)


today it's just an ordinary day..
nothing special popped into me life. (except for it's dad's bday.but we didnt have the sign of celebrating it.=( )
dont have the festival mood neither.
parents went for wedding dinner.
planned to go mbo with bro and his friends,
but his friend couldn't make it...so.....im here, facing the screen.
hmmmm......
just continue with my gossip girl then.

Happy Moon Day~
Happy Birthday Daddie~
Happy Birthday Berry jie~


actually, i do hope that there's a lantern on me hand, and walk around somewhere with a bunch of frens.
say me childish.
but that's what im hoping for, crazying during any celebrating festival, to have the festival's mood on. =(

cry like Tsunami.

^ just a joke. -,-
yeah~ today went mbo again.
went there once every week since the last 3 weeks.
cool. kinda addicted to mbo.^^
while it's a sign for 'bankcruptcy' too.><
im waiting for 'Jennifer's Body', 'Sorrority Row', 'Alice in Wonderland', 'Wolfman' etc...
but all look like the 'thriller' kind of movies..must find someone daring to watch together.hah!


this noon, me, zhabo, ying, fion, haw, fab, xen watched Tsunami.
for me, the movie is so-so only, kinda boring at 1st.
but in the end.touched*
omg. 1st time cried so badly in cinema.=x
but zhabo, who we think is 'tougher', cried worse than me.hah!
really touching leh, lots of sacrificings, many feeling ar..aduh...><
that fabian still HIT me head gok! booo! lalalalala~
*okla..thx for ur tisu la..happy la hor if saw this?*
and he really cold blooded! laughed and said we noob for crying!! ish ish!
this guy is feeling-less! lala
feel so nice to cry out~
phhhhuuhhh~~

when...

i wonder why, sometimes a lil thing from . can make me so upset.
hmmmm.......sighh**
butsheneverknowit.





and, why is it so hard for me to concentrate/focus on me work everytime?!!
EF my mind! my brain! my heart!
when can i grow up?
pathetic. -,-

strictly lost.

this morning, after i got back my EMB paper.
i was really damn upset and disappointed on myself...
it's lesser than what i expected.
even Charlie said "terrible" when i got the paper from him.
i was totally upset when i scanned the marks on the paper.
i replied him with a smile, "yeah..."
why i'll smile huh? @@
don't wana let him think that im sad? but if i smile, seemed like i dont wanna heck care.
oh...whatever. me fault afterall.

actually, i ever wondered, am i really suitable for this route?
im walking on this route, is it all because of mom's suggestion or i dont know what 'destination' im going for?
so ended up im in the middle of my starting point.
and i wondered, what if i failed this sub.
then im wasting my parents' money.
i ever thought of giving up if i continue like this, as i don't wana waste my parent's money on my laziness!!!!
wth-michele!!!!
but if i ended up or 'block' my own 'destination' in the middle of my starting point, where should i go for then??
haiz...is this 'destination' going to be the right one for me?
i dont have 'faith' on it.
disappointments came again. TT



ergh....depressed-nya.
i wanna hug someone, dearie!?? ='((

not my day.

what happened to me today?
i cut my hand twice! or maybe once!!
then i always 'tortured' my wounds by didnt protect it with a plaster.
ended up ouch ouch and ouch whenever it got a 'friction' with something. =="
then, i didnt realise my finger was still in pain until i wrote down the orderings from the customers.
and i even missed out one of their orderings.
i thought the daughter wana have the beef bolognese thingy, but stopped by her mom.
who knows, she really wana have it. =="
oh well...
then i even gave her mom the wrong change! erghhh!!!
what happened to me la.caused myself kept on saying sorry to them. @@
lazee to speak on me dy.. *SKIP*

and, i just got scolded by mom.
i was really just 'accidentally' 'slammed' the door just now...
*i kept silence*


why am i so down now? =(

24, memorable spending.

24sept09.
is a happy and enjoyable day for me
as i got to hang out with dearrie the whole day before she returns to kl.
went to lunch with her, zhabor and dine at 175
too bad not enough time for the fish spa, as i wanna listen to them screaming like what i did the other day.
but of coure i'm not like 'those' that were so exaggerating. hahahahah
ah haw wanna be me and dearie's bulb.
so he joined us for 'the ugly truth' that noon.
LOL on that movie!! hamsap and funny i can say..dearie still underage la.huhu.
and haw laugh till so high there.lols!!
really funny on some parts.hah!
then, me and dearie went for 'two person world' dy..lols!!!
*MWAHAHAHAHA NGEHEHEHEHEHE BLUSH BLUSH! will always remember that.hah!!!*
then, with an unwilling-ly heart, i need to drive her home dy..><
but thanks for everyting too, dear. mwamwa** =')

....

25sept09.
this morning, me and zhabor met up fabian at school.
then for breakfast at old times and fetched ying.
we went to airport to send dearie off after that.
at first i thought i wont cry, or smth...
who knows, when dearie wanted to go into the 'i-dono-call-wat-place'..
i saw few malays waving byebye there..
tooot.why wana let me saw that scene la @@
after i hugged dearie, i didnt cry!!
not until she went in, seemed like my 'water pipe' leaked..a little.
i quickly walked to a corner..duh.
thanks fab for the tissue neway.
glad that she's back there safely.

hey dear, i don't want you to get sick like what you told me!
you're definitely doing part-time on burning oil to9.
please rest enough la. adu...
worrie*
MISS YOU!! mwamwa**



one more thing, i still remember that today is my 'lost-contact' KL's sis birthday.
she definitely don't remember me dy...
planned to send her a msg this morning,
who knows i forgot to and wondering if she's still using it not.
oh well...
wish her here then.
Happy 19th Birthday Adelene jie! =)
from me.who's still remembering her.

desperado?

why

is

it

h a r d

for

m e

to

find

a

c o m p a n i o n

to

watch

a

movie

together,

quietly?

and...

im falling into gossip girl.

x o x o

stick to one please.

among all the stuffs i have now,
my cell phone is one of the most important one to me,
as i need it to contact with u-know-who-ccn-is...

but now, i feel like throwing/smashing it on the floor.
lots of things are just so dumb-ass popped into my mind,
making myself lost in WHAT I AM/WHO i want.
@@
even a question for the inno. tutorial work is almost killing me now. ef.


dumb freakish chele.
can i just stick to one whatever and disappear for a moment?

i'm with you.

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

in ♥ with this song.



having a stupid line here and nothing-to-do-nite.
sleeeep then.
taz~
@@

happy birthday to Tian Tian.=))

♥ is really complicating. but, complicating is ♥.

why need to suffer in this complicating ♥?

♥ is just really too complicated to be explained.

wo.yizhidouzai....

dearrie, wo bu shi zai an wei ni o~
zhi xiang shuo, wo hui yi zhi dou mo mo de zai ni shen bian..
pei ban zhe ni.
ji de, gao shu wo ni de shi leh..
shen me shi dou hao..
wo bu jie yi, zhi xiang zhi dao ni de zhuang kuang.
hai you, wo zhi dao wo man lo so de...haha
dan, dou shi yin wei guan xin ni mah...
xi wang ni bu jue de wo fan lo...>.<



rrXrYrYrr

niwoTA.

haihs~ wen qing chu le zhi hou,
de dao de da an,
man shi wang de.
yuan lai bu shi ta ren wei de.
shi ling you qi ren...
shi wo xiang tai duo le...
shi wo yi xiang qing yuan de...
jin tian yu jian le ta.
hen yi wai de, zai sha na yu ta shi mu xiang kan.
dan, hen leng mo de, dou 'tui suo' le.
qi shi dou mei shen me.
zhi shi zi ji de yi xiang qing yuan ba le.
gai zhen me ban?
bu zhi dao......
jiu zhe yang suan le ma?


i'dfeltdisappointedcountlessly...
till when can i get my 'sixth sense' or feelings right? ='(



damn.stomach damn ache!!!!
and i dono whether my EMB test will get 5/20% or not...='(((

yu da de ye wan.

gang gang xia le yi chang hen da de yu
wo du zi yi ge ren dai zai che li
yin wei mama bu ken rang wo zi ji jia che hui jia
shuo feng hen da yu hen da o.x
deng ta men lai dai wo hui jia
zai huili jia mian qian deng le ban ge duo zhong

huili shuo you yi ge guai shu shu zai na li zhan zhe
ta dan xin wo de an quan
dan wo you bu xiang shang qu ta jia deng
suo yi dai zai che li
ta chao ke ai he sweet de
da dian hua gei wo, shuo yao pei wo deng dao fu mu lai
dan wo ju jue le, xuan zhe sms
chao ke ai lo..chi hui fu ta, ta jiu da dian hua gei wo, wen wo zai gan ma
hahaha ben lai xin qing bu hao de, ye bei ni gan dong yi xia xia le =)
zhabor, xie xie ni la.=p
zhen rou ma~ lols!


kan zhe chuang wai de yu
oh! hao you yu de gan jue o~
dan, hou mian hao scary o
coz you shi hou mei che
kan guo qu an an de
zhi you yi zhan lu deng. o.O



qi shi, wo man xi huan zai xia yu tian
dai zai che li, kan zhe wai mian de yu di.....

heart.

#
一顆心
可以有好多感受
喜 怒 哀 樂 幸福　快樂　痛苦　難過

愛一個人 就有想要保護他的衝動
不愛一個人 連想都不會想到

當一件事情出現了
憂心的感覺就會接二連三 一直一直越想越糟 越想越痛苦
這也許就叫做
想太多

但想太多前 總是會有徵兆的
有人一直在追尋　戀愛　的感覺
有人一直在尋求　安穩　的感覺

會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 就好想好想告訴他 自己有多喜歡他
會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 就開心的好慶幸手牽手的是他
會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 卻什麼都不想講　心揪在一塊　難過
#

現在我的心　是煩躁　是擔心　是depressed 真是好 複雜 的一顆 心 呀～～


just saw this post from Hong Shih's blog.
totally agreee on how she felt.



There's a special someone in your heart, that you will try and do anything for him/her no matter what.
Sometimes you will be asking yourself, W H Y .
There's only an answer for it.
It is all because of 'Love'.


iheartyou.

...

boo ga boo ga booga
abbooo abooo aboooo
ooooooo 00000000 oooooooooo
toooooooooooooooooooooooooot
.




*whooooooooh....*

=)

watatoooot.

erghhhh...
this week is already the 4th week for us.
on the 5th week, it's the due date for our innovation & change's assignment,
and i'm stilll trying out with the researches on those wth-product!!

the following week, week 6, will be worst:
(1) Having an English oral presentation. (wearing formal, giving a speech on a 5-7 mins argumentative topic + needa have some body language and eye-to-eye-contact with the audience..and it only cost us 5 marks. -.-)
(2) Due date for Chemistry assignment.
(3) Having a Chemistry topic test. (regret much didn't stay serious during form 5)
(4) Having EMB (engineering maths B) test. (what?!! im stillll BLURR and LOST with this heck!)



erghhhh...im damn frustrated and sleeeepy. lights off!!
whatcanidoimissbiesoomuch. ='(

igottafeelin'

dearrie, thanks for being with me.
let you saw me crycry again..aduh..paip me...==
ifeel n i c e whenyoucuddledoraroundwithme.
wonder if still have the chance not.
m i s s yousomuchbie.
good night and take care!
♥ muacks~

T.T

hate that...... !!

haiz...

emo.

mwa.

=) :) ;) =P XD XP =D x)
i <3 the time that we spent together yesterday..
it will always be staying in my mind, heart.
showed my 'weak point' in front of you. -.-
i cried, coz.....>.<
heheh.emo me.bopien...LOLs~
hmm..my firstie.hehehehehe (=^.^=)
laff-fubie~ mwamwa




T.T TT_TT =( ='(( >.<
i just cried...coz.....
ergh!! hate that i.........*^%^#??$#@ !!!!!
haihz.......

-BBIDMYAILYTTM.

fun.not.

this few days
when going to or back from school
i like to 'piao che' from 65-80km/hr (with xiao huang)
fast? don't know..think it's not for some people
of course..i'll depends on the condition of the road.!
feel sienz easily if the car in front is slow or slows me down from 'piao-ing'
whatth am i rushing for!
i don't know


maybe is myself who do not have the patient.




.enoemosgnissimmemginkamsihehttahw.
erghhh....

symptoms!!

ergh...im s i c k !!
my flu and sorethroat woke me up in the middle of my sleep.
and now became worst.
headache and fever came too.
sounds like symptoms of SOMETHING right?
ergh...argh...ish...wth....


and yeah, i walk here and there around to become a waiter and also a cashier the whole noon.o.O

DAN is borned.

again, just got home
went out for 15 hours
wow.tired man..
recently always slept at 1am+ and woke up before 9am..
then went out to here and there.
aduh..tired sei~
later maybe 8am+ needa go to cafe to lend a hand and start my 'working' dy..
woo~
don't have any nervous feeling at all.
felt like cold-blooded.no feeling.
but, tired and sleepy i am..
maybe when the customers are there then i nervous.hah!
from tomorrow, i mean later, onwards, "D.A.N" will be my second home.=/
needa go there for lunch and dinner before/after my classes.woo.
glad and lucky that the previous owner willing to teach mom some 'gang hu' on the noodles..
and also mom's relative who ever worked as a cook at Silhoutte is coming for western cook too.
hmm..wad can i do then?
cashier? scare dont know how to use the machine later. o.O"
beverages? scare later the beverages cant be drunk. *khak-pui*
kitchen? i CANT cook man...>.<
serving? halo.....erm...=)
lols~
ah~ miss me bed.
and.....

15 hours' "day trip".

just got back from a 15 hrs' day trip =="
went for breakfast with family at 9am+
i wanted to eat number 6's chicken porridge,
but the 'ah pek' still didnt open his stall.
haiz..went there 3 days continuously already.><
so, jux simply had our breakfast at top 10.
then went here and there to buy the stuffs/utensils that we need.
*blablabla* duh...
then after dinner went back to shop and did the cleaningsss till 11pm+
both Sang Hua and Cola went to look for us.
laughed and chatted around, then me and bro follow them for supper at daydream.
quite nice.
shared a LARGE carrot milk juice with bro.
too bad cant upload the pictures.ish..dono why..==
HSH around 12.30am then off to bed at 1am+..
*tired*

DAN's coming soon.

since my last few posts were so emo

then then, today just wanna post up something

that i did/went everyday these days

*let the pictures say*

the colours of the walls and ceiling are different now
and there will still be some changes going on...

*bo su zhor.edit for fun*

**tadaa**

our cafe will be opening on next Saturday,

1st of Auggie @ Green Height (near to Cold Storage).

*kinteo-nya*

mom still go and tell everyone of her frens to go on THAT day.LOL?

more info will be updated soon.

*lei pong chan ar wei~* XD

ciaoz~

me didn't pay me water bill?

recently, i wonder why when im sad/mad
or encountered with some sad/touch drama/story
i cant cry out.
why.kenapa.wei shen me.dim gai.

i want to cry out.want me tears to fall.
i want to mix up all the unspeakable feelings and cry out.
coz it will make one feel better.eh?
looks like im desperate for tears.==


P A T H E T I C -nya .

-i shall face me destiny MY OWN.