when...

i wonder why, sometimes a lil thing from . can make me so upset.
hmmmm.......sighh**
butsheneverknowit.





and, why is it so hard for me to concentrate/focus on me work everytime?!!
EF my mind! my brain! my heart!
when can i grow up?
pathetic. -,-

strictly lost.

this morning, after i got back my EMB paper.
i was really damn upset and disappointed on myself...
it's lesser than what i expected.
even Charlie said "terrible" when i got the paper from him.
i was totally upset when i scanned the marks on the paper.
i replied him with a smile, "yeah..."
why i'll smile huh? @@
don't wana let him think that im sad? but if i smile, seemed like i dont wanna heck care.
oh...whatever. me fault afterall.

actually, i ever wondered, am i really suitable for this route?
im walking on this route, is it all because of mom's suggestion or i dont know what 'destination' im going for?
so ended up im in the middle of my starting point.
and i wondered, what if i failed this sub.
then im wasting my parents' money.
i ever thought of giving up if i continue like this, as i don't wana waste my parent's money on my laziness!!!!
wth-michele!!!!
but if i ended up or 'block' my own 'destination' in the middle of my starting point, where should i go for then??
haiz...is this 'destination' going to be the right one for me?
i dont have 'faith' on it.
disappointments came again. TT



ergh....depressed-nya.
i wanna hug someone, dearie!?? ='((

not my day.

what happened to me today?
i cut my hand twice! or maybe once!!
then i always 'tortured' my wounds by didnt protect it with a plaster.
ended up ouch ouch and ouch whenever it got a 'friction' with something. =="
then, i didnt realise my finger was still in pain until i wrote down the orderings from the customers.
and i even missed out one of their orderings.
i thought the daughter wana have the beef bolognese thingy, but stopped by her mom.
who knows, she really wana have it. =="
oh well...
then i even gave her mom the wrong change! erghhh!!!
what happened to me la.caused myself kept on saying sorry to them. @@
lazee to speak on me dy.. *SKIP*

and, i just got scolded by mom.
i was really just 'accidentally' 'slammed' the door just now...
*i kept silence*


why am i so down now? =(

24, memorable spending.

24sept09.
is a happy and enjoyable day for me
as i got to hang out with dearrie the whole day before she returns to kl.
went to lunch with her, zhabor and dine at 175
too bad not enough time for the fish spa, as i wanna listen to them screaming like what i did the other day.
but of coure i'm not like 'those' that were so exaggerating. hahahahah
ah haw wanna be me and dearie's bulb.
so he joined us for 'the ugly truth' that noon.
LOL on that movie!! hamsap and funny i can say..dearie still underage la.huhu.
and haw laugh till so high there.lols!!
really funny on some parts.hah!
then, me and dearie went for 'two person world' dy..lols!!!
*MWAHAHAHAHA NGEHEHEHEHEHE BLUSH BLUSH! will always remember that.hah!!!*
then, with an unwilling-ly heart, i need to drive her home dy..><
but thanks for everyting too, dear. mwamwa** =')

....

25sept09.
this morning, me and zhabor met up fabian at school.
then for breakfast at old times and fetched ying.
we went to airport to send dearie off after that.
at first i thought i wont cry, or smth...
who knows, when dearie wanted to go into the 'i-dono-call-wat-place'..
i saw few malays waving byebye there..
tooot.why wana let me saw that scene la @@
after i hugged dearie, i didnt cry!!
not until she went in, seemed like my 'water pipe' leaked..a little.
i quickly walked to a corner..duh.
thanks fab for the tissue neway.
glad that she's back there safely.

hey dear, i don't want you to get sick like what you told me!
you're definitely doing part-time on burning oil to9.
please rest enough la. adu...
worrie*
MISS YOU!! mwamwa**



one more thing, i still remember that today is my 'lost-contact' KL's sis birthday.
she definitely don't remember me dy...
planned to send her a msg this morning,
who knows i forgot to and wondering if she's still using it not.
oh well...
wish her here then.
Happy 19th Birthday Adelene jie! =)
from me.who's still remembering her.

desperado?

why

is

it

h a r d

for

m e

to

find

a

c o m p a n i o n

to

watch

a

movie

together,

quietly?

and...

im falling into gossip girl.

x o x o

stick to one please.

among all the stuffs i have now,
my cell phone is one of the most important one to me,
as i need it to contact with u-know-who-ccn-is...

but now, i feel like throwing/smashing it on the floor.
lots of things are just so dumb-ass popped into my mind,
making myself lost in WHAT I AM/WHO i want.
@@
even a question for the inno. tutorial work is almost killing me now. ef.


dumb freakish chele.
can i just stick to one whatever and disappear for a moment?

i'm with you.

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

in ♥ with this song.



having a stupid line here and nothing-to-do-nite.
sleeeep then.
taz~
@@

happy birthday to Tian Tian.=))

♥ is really complicating. but, complicating is ♥.

why need to suffer in this complicating ♥?

♥ is just really too complicated to be explained.

wo.yizhidouzai....

dearrie, wo bu shi zai an wei ni o~
zhi xiang shuo, wo hui yi zhi dou mo mo de zai ni shen bian..
pei ban zhe ni.
ji de, gao shu wo ni de shi leh..
shen me shi dou hao..
wo bu jie yi, zhi xiang zhi dao ni de zhuang kuang.
hai you, wo zhi dao wo man lo so de...haha
dan, dou shi yin wei guan xin ni mah...
xi wang ni bu jue de wo fan lo...>.<



rrXrYrYrr

niwoTA.

haihs~ wen qing chu le zhi hou,
de dao de da an,
man shi wang de.
yuan lai bu shi ta ren wei de.
shi ling you qi ren...
shi wo xiang tai duo le...
shi wo yi xiang qing yuan de...
jin tian yu jian le ta.
hen yi wai de, zai sha na yu ta shi mu xiang kan.
dan, hen leng mo de, dou 'tui suo' le.
qi shi dou mei shen me.
zhi shi zi ji de yi xiang qing yuan ba le.
gai zhen me ban?
bu zhi dao......
jiu zhe yang suan le ma?


i'dfeltdisappointedcountlessly...
till when can i get my 'sixth sense' or feelings right? ='(



damn.stomach damn ache!!!!
and i dono whether my EMB test will get 5/20% or not...='(((

yu da de ye wan.

gang gang xia le yi chang hen da de yu
wo du zi yi ge ren dai zai che li
yin wei mama bu ken rang wo zi ji jia che hui jia
shuo feng hen da yu hen da o.x
deng ta men lai dai wo hui jia
zai huili jia mian qian deng le ban ge duo zhong

huili shuo you yi ge guai shu shu zai na li zhan zhe
ta dan xin wo de an quan
dan wo you bu xiang shang qu ta jia deng
suo yi dai zai che li
ta chao ke ai he sweet de
da dian hua gei wo, shuo yao pei wo deng dao fu mu lai
dan wo ju jue le, xuan zhe sms
chao ke ai lo..chi hui fu ta, ta jiu da dian hua gei wo, wen wo zai gan ma
hahaha ben lai xin qing bu hao de, ye bei ni gan dong yi xia xia le =)
zhabor, xie xie ni la.=p
zhen rou ma~ lols!


kan zhe chuang wai de yu
oh! hao you yu de gan jue o~
dan, hou mian hao scary o
coz you shi hou mei che
kan guo qu an an de
zhi you yi zhan lu deng. o.O



qi shi, wo man xi huan zai xia yu tian
dai zai che li, kan zhe wai mian de yu di.....

heart.

#
一顆心
可以有好多感受
喜 怒 哀 樂 幸福　快樂　痛苦　難過

愛一個人 就有想要保護他的衝動
不愛一個人 連想都不會想到

當一件事情出現了
憂心的感覺就會接二連三 一直一直越想越糟 越想越痛苦
這也許就叫做
想太多

但想太多前 總是會有徵兆的
有人一直在追尋　戀愛　的感覺
有人一直在尋求　安穩　的感覺

會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 就好想好想告訴他 自己有多喜歡他
會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 就開心的好慶幸手牽手的是他
會不會有時候看著自己的另一半 卻什麼都不想講　心揪在一塊　難過
#

現在我的心　是煩躁　是擔心　是depressed 真是好 複雜 的一顆 心 呀～～


just saw this post from Hong Shih's blog.
totally agreee on how she felt.



There's a special someone in your heart, that you will try and do anything for him/her no matter what.
Sometimes you will be asking yourself, W H Y .
There's only an answer for it.
It is all because of 'Love'.


iheartyou.

...

boo ga boo ga booga
abbooo abooo aboooo
ooooooo 00000000 oooooooooo
toooooooooooooooooooooooooot
.




*whooooooooh....*

=)

watatoooot.

erghhhh...
this week is already the 4th week for us.
on the 5th week, it's the due date for our innovation & change's assignment,
and i'm stilll trying out with the researches on those wth-product!!

the following week, week 6, will be worst:
(1) Having an English oral presentation. (wearing formal, giving a speech on a 5-7 mins argumentative topic + needa have some body language and eye-to-eye-contact with the audience..and it only cost us 5 marks. -.-)
(2) Due date for Chemistry assignment.
(3) Having a Chemistry topic test. (regret much didn't stay serious during form 5)
(4) Having EMB (engineering maths B) test. (what?!! im stillll BLURR and LOST with this heck!)



erghhhh...im damn frustrated and sleeeepy. lights off!!
whatcanidoimissbiesoomuch. ='(