strictly lost.

this morning, after i got back my EMB paper.
i was really damn upset and disappointed on myself...
it's lesser than what i expected.
even Charlie said "terrible" when i got the paper from him.
i was totally upset when i scanned the marks on the paper.
i replied him with a smile, "yeah..."
why i'll smile huh? @@
don't wana let him think that im sad? but if i smile, seemed like i dont wanna heck care.
oh...whatever. me fault afterall.

actually, i ever wondered, am i really suitable for this route?
im walking on this route, is it all because of mom's suggestion or i dont know what 'destination' im going for?
so ended up im in the middle of my starting point.
and i wondered, what if i failed this sub.
then im wasting my parents' money.
i ever thought of giving up if i continue like this, as i don't wana waste my parent's money on my laziness!!!!
wth-michele!!!!
but if i ended up or 'block' my own 'destination' in the middle of my starting point, where should i go for then??
haiz...is this 'destination' going to be the right one for me?
i dont have 'faith' on it.
disappointments came again. TT



ergh....depressed-nya.
i wanna hug someone, dearie!?? ='((