wherzmaheart.

*she's on board now...might be nervous-ing bout tomorrow's life...*

i did what i had said..
i did hug her tightly...
i don't feel like letting off my hand..
the words cant speak out from my mouth...
as the moment i hugged her, the laughter from my face,
which we were crazying on camwhoring at mcDee's earlier on, had vanished...
tears started to drop...
i let off her, approached to jen them and don't wanna look back...

but, i did.
i saw her crying too. ><
and also her mom, ying and ying's mom.


i'll wait for your return to 'accomplish' on 'the thing' u had said just now.
remember o~~ heheh.
*im waiting. =)*


oya, thanks jen, angel and litwei for the 'consoles'. heheheh
i'll =) nah~ ^^


you left...
bringing my heart away.
i felt so alone...
love and miss you *deep deep*~

imy.

to choookie yao dearr.
in a blink of an eye..
you're flying tonite!!!
woowwie~~
later will be the last time to see you before ur return eh?
i cheated u that i cant go..HAHAH *sorry na~*
hopefully later will surprise you! ^^
together with jen them~
*shhh...think u wont on9 and see this now la hor.hah!*
will you cry later?? i wana see!! hahahahah *evil*
i.........w i l l lo~!! >.<"

last night Angel was so sweet. ^^
but lemme 'found out'.hah!
thanks much much gurl!! =)



*gonna hug you tygh-tight before u leave later!! hohohoho!! lmao*
ijagauthroughsmsna~ hahaha
but DO take care of urself oso ah!!!
gonnamizumucmuc~
aisinilebaobei~ XD

banana.

earlier on, in the middle of the lonely night..
suddenly thought of..
It's 19th Today!!
(none of my friend's bday la.lol)
in a blink of an eye,
the 1 month+ period is now left till 12 days to move on...
wow.
wondering what's next going to happen among us eh.
><

haiz~
only these words to drop for now..

banana-dearrr, i really 'she bu de' you!! T_T


like ah tu: "wo zhen de hen she bu de she bu de she bu de~ ><"

love always,

ah shi.

hurtmemore.

my heart had bleed-ed several times..

i wonder how much blood was left in it.

is there any 'plaster' for it??

.

.

p/s: DON'T ask me what happen please.thx.

im a weak human.

what should i do...
what am i thinking...
what am i going to do next...
what actually i want the most!!!
im l o s t .
my mind is blank except for the conversation we had just now...
im s o r r y that i cant give the answer u want...
coz im a coward....a cowars that don't know what she wants and faces it.
from ur message, i feel that it's the end of us...
im...
a f r a i d .



"EmotionsYou tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings afterall.."

just got this answer from the facebook quiz...totally me eh...

indeed...it's the end.

0004

officially 18.

yesterday (6ixpointsix), had a party at my homie.

THANKS MUCH MUCH

to ALL my jimuix and buddies for the presents,

cards, messages/wishes, and not to forget,

appeared for my party.

hah. had a wonderful night~

thanks everyone! =)

after all of them had gone home,

me, dear yao, huili, ying, mamii hui, dehh, norman, haw

went to airport.

starbucks and mcDee~

*funny thing happened there.lolx*

then, we(except norman and haw), drive home at 11.40+pm.

we arrived my house at 11.58pm,

and asked mamii and deh jump into hli's car and we had a countdown inside.

LOLs.dear even took a short video for it.hah!

THANKS gurlss~ ><

then we had our bath and stayed till 3am+ watching the LAME

horror movie.LOLx

*arh~ cant uplod any pics neh..NOT a single pic is with me.><*

*took them while waiting for ying~*

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se7enpointsix.

i slept at 4am++ and woke at 8-9am..hah!

*sorry Lerk, we cant make it to the airport to 'send-you-aeroplane'..><*

had our bath and ate my egg,

we headed to enter-K.

(cool wei, 8 ppl using 4 cars, 2 each.nice one!! LMAO)

as it was still early, and nowhere to go,

went to spring to 'kill time'.

took some pics with dear.lol

then me, dear and ying went to kado for dinner.

*i drove back without light, luckily i rmb to switch it on before going any further.=="*

**and i noticed that i didn't ate much in these 2 days~ huhu*

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arrh~ nice memories for my 18!

again,

thanks to all~ *winks*

coconut.

edited by CUTIE jen mui~ *thx much much =)*


Actually after 'that day', i already tried hard to accept it. Eventhough will feel a little upset whenever heard of it, but i can still manage to control my emotion. But then, hate that don't know why yesterday the emotion returned. =( Hopefully i can accept it like how i did earlier on. With huili's words, and nothing much i can do, i'll "let you go happily". Yeah, i cant be so selfish. Hopefully can make the memories of these 3 weeks to the fullest, for you and for us, eh? 3 weeks left huh..where to go? What to do? Lack of idea now, who/what to blame? Kuching. ==" haiz~ This little thingy also hard to accomplish. But for me, it'll be alrite with the boring places or boring activities, as long as we are there or what-so-ever together. I don't care.
18 months + 36 months which equivalent to 4.5 years is not like how i imagine it to be that short. You said that time flies. I agree, but also think that we can't blink an eye for a few times then we are at the age of 22/23 now. Think about it, it's not like, today i step into the classroom of Form 1, and tomorrow i am ready to tear off my SPM papers already. *wow* There WILL be lots of happenings that can change us in between eh..REALLY. And that's what im worry about...
Being a coward, i don't dare to accept it, and will think this and that.
But what i cant deny is, you're really really important to me (i think u noe), think that...maybe important like a family member or further than that. (this, maybe u dono) Hope that after 30th, our lives still having each other inside...
Wondering whether 30th can/going to say 'goodbye' to you at the airport not eh...
Hopefully someday we can meet or (best way) study together at the same state in Aussie! Do take care of yourself eh, especially your meals. Don't Skip!
*should stop naggin'*

oh wait...i don't care if this post is gelik/lessy...
i wanna say this from my heart.
thanks for stepping into my life and loving me.
I Love You. *deep deep*
*gonna miss u muchmuch*
hugs.

#there's only 0NE heart, TW0 gurls, THREE words F0UR you, MLP.#

love,

ccn3-bei-chele.

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