cool situation.

suddenly feel so tired on everything.
yeah... e v e r y t h i n g .
friendship, 'relationship', studies, ..... or even on my own interests.

this noon dono why i had the thought of quiting . . . ..
then, just now heard of those things...
im lazy to explain, and dono what to say...
so i chose to say sorry.
i felt quiting 'that' too.
*like what huili thought*

suddenly feel that it's hard to maintain a REAL long-lasting friendship.
but of course, these type of friendship need to face a whole lot of 'obstacles'.
for now, i cant and dont know how to.
so, i choose to keep silence at the moment.
i apologize.

it's hard to find a person that's willingly to lend his/her ears for u.

a new life.

it's coming afterall...
i can't hide from it...

tomorrow. a brand new day for me.
totally new.
new environment. new friends. new 'teachers' (lecturers). new facilities.
new seating. new rules. new subjects. new timetable. new assignments.
and maybe... a new Life.
everything is going to be new for me.
what should i do to calm myself down from those fears.
just hope that i can use to them sooner someday.
*hold a deep breath~*

from tomorrow onwards....
work hard chele. w o r k H A R D .
b e m o r e a c t i v e .
pp-lizz..



swinburne. im n o t ready, but im c o m i n g.

my bad.

i always realised that i'd wasted my 770 days...
but i can't stop myself from being so.
and what i've got now was only this 3 lil thingy.
i still manage to smile and 'comfort' others around after i knew it.
i wonder what am i.

but thing went differently after i finally got into the car.
the words came out from mom made me felt bad.
that sentence really hurt me.
she NEVER knows.
although i know it's a fact.

my sadness and disappointment came.
went into my room, tears dropped.
i know it's too late.
but heck cares.
that's how i feel about myself.
a freak. and it's a dumb one.
i can't 'overcome' my own with the comfort/smile i made for most people.

*sigh*
i used to be a person with LESS confidence, or without.
and now...seems like it's going to be the same.
lost faith.

i'll be alright... maybe later.
i wonder...
what am i.



and yeah~
Congrates to ALL of YOU who did well~ =)
angel.mami.c.sien.yuan.janson.dear.tian.deh.fion.dine.kueh.and so on.

100 facts of mine.

Tagged in facebook.
*but i chose to post it up here. =)*


1. Last beverage→ hot milo.
2. Last phone call → mom.
3. Last text message→ fio.wished her happy b'dae.*wonder she received it not.><*
4. Last song you listened to → Moonlight Sonata, compossed by Ludwig van Beethoven.
5. Last time you cried → few days ago....

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → yeah.
7. Been cheated on? yeahh.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? never.yet...
9. Lost someone special? er...nope.
10. Been depressed? yeahhh.
11. Been drunk? never.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. white
13.black
14.blue

HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → yeahx~
16. Fallen out of love → uhm....
17. Laughed until you cried → yeah. smtms.
18. Met someone who changed you→ er...yeahh?
19. Found out who your true friends were→ yeahx~
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ er...maybe?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ nope.none wants.lolx
23. How many kids do you want to have→ 2 or 3. *twinny* hahah
24. Do you have any pets → yeah.fishy.but i dont feed them.0.0
25. Do you want to change your name→ too bad i cant. =/
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ had my frenz over..BBQ. yea....
27. What time did you wake up today? 9.38am? lolx. and caught a flu. =="
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ er...watching drama.sleepin.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → oo~
30. Last time you saw your father→ half an hour ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → make me an optimistic gal?
32. What are you listening to right now → Bløf & Counting Crows - Holiday in Spain.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → i dont have a fren name Tom, yet.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? er...get this thing done soon?
36. What's your real name → Michele, with the initial CWS.
37. Relationship Status → single, available? lolx
38. Zodiac sign → the twinny, gemini.
39. Male or female→ F.
40. Elementary→ err?
41. Middle School → kch high.LOL
42. High school → kch high.LOL
43. Hair color → greenish yellow + brown + BLACK. sobx! *hair grew so long dy..><*
44. Long or short → long.
45. Height → 165 cm??
46. Do you have a crush on someone? er...nope at the moment.
47. What do you like about yourself? err...lame? =="
48. Piercings → none.even ears~ *have stories behind*
49. Tattoos → none.
50. Righty or lefty → LEFTY~ =) but heard that lefty die earlier than righty?? omg. o.O

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → if my ear's part counts. =)
52. First piercing → at the age of....5 or 6??
53. First tattoo → none.
54. First best friend → err...u or u? lolx
55. First sport you joined → if 'played', football? played with bro when i was SMALL.lolx
56. First pet → birdie? forgot.
57. First vacation→ s'pore? miri? forgot.
58. First concert → never yet.
59. First crush → hehehhe
60. First alcohol drink → if Shandy counts.LOLx.

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → nothing. late lorrr.....
62. Drinking → nothing. lazy take...=x
63. I'm about to → go zzz land soon~
64. Listening to → TOMMY HEAVENLY6 - HEY MY FRIEND.
65. Waiting for → *the day.*

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? yeahs~
67. Want to get married? yeahs~
68. Careers in mind? advertiser? lol. biotechnician i guess.....

WHICH IS BETTER IN A PARTNER?
69. Lips or eyes → Eyes. beautiful~
70. Hugs or kisses → Hugs~ shweeetss~
71. Shorter or taller → Taller!! hahah
72. Older or Younger → Older~ depends? oppx. *not too biggie range~*
73. Romantic or spontaneous → Romance.
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → Nice arms.
75. Tattoos or piercings→ Piercings.
76. Sensitive or loud → Loud.
77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → nope!
80. Drank hard liquor → nope.
81. Lost glasses/contacts → nope.
82. Sex on first date → nope!! impo man~
83. Broken someone's heart → yeah, maybe....
84. Had your own heart broken → yeahs~~~ lotx.
85. Been arrested? nope.
86. Turned someone down → er...maybe?
87. Cried when someone died → er...granny? when i was small.forgot.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → yeah~ my dear! LOLx

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → nope....
90. Miracles → i guess...yeah.
91. Love at first sight → yeapx!
92. Heaven → yeahs.
93. Santa Claus → erm...nope?
94. Kissing on the first date? → yeah..if it's a 'real date'. or maybe not.
95. Angels → yeahs.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → erm...dono?
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → nope!
98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yeahs~
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? friends.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? yeahs~ (and i like it.lolx.)



.END.

'Xtreme' me.

oh gosh..
i was totally getting so 'extreme' these 3 days...
the first, which was on Thursday.
i had a lil breathing difficulty,
asked mom to bring me to Kuching Specialist for 'puffing'.(dono how to spell)
i'm quite used to 'that machine' when i was small.
but i'm okay already after my primary 6,
but that day, it was a sudden.
the second, yesterday,
i felt sick and uncomfortable since evening.
after the 'rosary prayer' at neighbour's,
i asked dad to bring me home first.
felt wanna vormit, stomachache and uncomfortable.
about 10pm+, decided to go to my "God mother's" place for "Gua Sha".
kinda pain, but she did it with about 60-70's strength only? not sure.
she helped me to massage everywhere to release the 'heat' in my body.
when i'm home, i can't sleep.
coz earlier on i drank a few lil mouth of coffee at neighbour's.(no next time)
just closed my eyes, and...
1.30am woke up and vormit.*eew*
back to sleep.(which is hard and my stomach was pain)
till just now before 8am woke.
vormit AGAIN. O.O gosh...
argh...feel so uncomfortable now!! darn.
one more thing, my period came today.
what a COINCIDENCE.
(and i feel wanna vormit again.)
'extreme me'.
*hin*

oh God, when are these going to end. T_T

say what??

NO...
i don't wanna be so anymore. dumb.
NO...
i don't wanna think too much. dumb dumb.
NO...
i don't wanna get hurt anymore. dumb dumb dumb.
NO...
really not worthing. dumb dumb dumb dumb.
NO...
just NO.
NO...
i didn't say anything.did i?

fed up....

and...

YES...

to the reborn of a new gurl. genius.

Loacker fault.

it is one of your favourite wafer-biscuits.
just now mom went out and bought two flavours for it.
Cremkakao and Milk's.
i know your favourite flavour is the almond's.
when i saw the biscuits.
i don't feel like eating them anymore.
(coz it's me who asked mom to buy cookies earlier on)
actually the biscuits/cookies were so-so for me.
i just like to have fun snatching food with you everytime.
(although sometimes we argued coz of it.lolx)
and ended up we shared our food equally everytime.lolx
when we bought Loacker, we will just get 4 pieces each.haha
sometimes when eating 1901 or so,
i'll naughti-ly purposely said,
"ee...ur sausage (1901's) is longer than mine. fast fast give me 1 bite ar." (etc.)
then u will reply,
"haiya, u wana use ruler to measure or not? / u wana measure how much the weight is?"
hahahah.stupid conversation eh?
haiz...miss the time and fun.
although i want u to come back,
i still hope u can have ur day at s'pore.
darn Loacker...
made me missed bro,
and cried the 2nd time for today.*ish*
(although smtms i'll hate him)
.
.
.
.
.

Loacker, think im going to leave u in the basket TILL i really wanna eat u.

lonely...

go ahead.

darn...

guyz~

14's K-P-O thing...

i cant turn up already.

just have fun without me eh~

i'll be fine.

i guess.

sorrie.

Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights
But lullabies helps make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
I'm building up the strength just to say

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's all me,
This time is the last time that I'll ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know your gonna walk away
And leave me with the price to pay
Before you go
I wanted to say

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that
I wasn't around to keep
It's all me,
This time is the last time that
I'll ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go,
Then please girl, just leave me alone
'Cause I don't want to see
You and me going our separate ways
I'm begging you to stay
If it isn't too late

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's all me,
This time is the last time that I'll ever beg you to stay
But your'e already on your way

But you're already on your way

.Jonas Brothers.

the 10 of today.

I would like to say that...


1. I hate this sh*tty connection!! Made me REFRESHED my HSH. *countless-ly*

2. I'm blocking someone for few days already. But i just unblocked him today. *im lazy to talk with u. sorry.*

3. I'm having a mixing mood inside. But i'm =) outside.

4. I'm very sh*tty as i can't do whatever i'd decided.

5. I'm still coughing.

6. I'm sad coz u use that-kind-of-tone to talk with me just now. (smtms u did so)
And u, i'm kinda mad when u just snatched the phone away when u know it's from bro. =(

7. I'm hoping to change into a new gurl.

8. I love this song. *Like You Will Never See Me Again.*

9.

10. I'm emo. So?